Razor Blade Symphony pt 42

-CC's POV-



We've been searching for Andy for days. Going up and down random streets to try and find his car or him. We were driving downtown around 4 pm and I thought I saw his car, I wasn't sure, but I made Jinxx drive down that street anyway.
               
"I swear this is his car!!!" I nearly yelled. Ashley just rolled his eyes at me.
     
         "CC, you've said that over 50 times now, I'm sorry but I don't believe you." Jinxx said, sounding annoyed, yet worried.
 
            "At least I haven't given up hope. Just drive." I said, folding my arms and pouting in the backseat, my eyes peeled on the scenery throughout the window, looking for a sign of Andy.

               "Wait…. That IS Andy's car!" Ashley said, "IT'S GOT THE SAME BVB BUMPER STICKER AND THAT DENT FROM WHEN CC HIT IS CAR WITH THE LAWN MOWER!!!" Ashley was screaming now. I ripped off my seatbelt and nearly jumped out of the car. Ashley pulled me back and waited for Jinxx to pull the car over.

               I sprinted to where Andy's car was parked and looked inside.

               "Shit! He's gone!" Ashley came running up right behind me to see for himself.

               "He couldn't have gone far, it looks like he's been sleeping in his car. Let's look for him on foot from here on out." Said Jinxx, sounding monotone. It was hard to tell if he had hope or not.

               "Alright, so I'll walk up the street, Ash, you walk down the street, and Jinxx, wait by his car, maybe he'll return." I stated. Ashley and Jinxx looked at me with startled expressions, their jaws dropped.

               "Wow CC, I've never seen you so serious and in charge like that…" Said Ashley.

              "Well, I've never been searching for my friend worried that he might do something terrible because of his depression." I explained, and I started walking up the street without hearing their responses. I was so focused. I HAD to find him.

               It was a bit of a walk, but I wasn't going to turn back yet. I looked up ahead and I saw someone sitting on a bench, they were wearing all black and looked like they were scratching their arm or something. As I got closer I realized it was Andy, what was he doing to his arm? Andy fell on the ground, I started sprinting to him and was horrified at what I saw before me.
 
             "Andy?!? ANDY WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!! OPEN YOUR EYES, LOOK AT ME ANDY PLEASE!!!!!" I screamed, crouching down I cradled him in my arms trying to wake him up.
Andy had a razor in his hand and there was blood everywhere. On one of his arms he had carved, "Failure" it was deep, and the cuts needed stitches. It looked so painful, but on the other one, he carved something deeper into his skin…. It was hard to read with all of the blood but it looked like, "Phoenix" oh god…. No…. Andy NO!!!!
 
             I took out my phone and called an ambulance. Then I ripped off my shirt and wrapped his arm with it, I kept a constant pressure. I looked around us and we were literally sitting in a huge pool of blood. Oh Andy, what have you done? I also called Jinxx and Ashley, they started running towards us while we waited for an ambulance to come.
 
             "Oh god… what did he do?!?!" Jinxx muttered.
 
            "Guys….. I…. I think he was trying to kill himself…. Look at his arm, what he carved…." I stuttered, still holding his limp body in my lap while keeping pressure on his other arm. Ashley and Jinxx looked, they gasped when they read what Andy had carved onto his own flesh.

               "But… what even happened? Why are you holding his other arm? Did he…. You know… that one too?" Ashley asked, staring at the arm I had in my hands. I nodded somberly. Tears started pouring down my cheeks as I thought about how much pain Andy had to be in to put a blade to his skin. He was always here to help fans through their struggles, he talked them out of self harm. It was so hard to realize that my friend was in such a dark hole that he turned to a blade- it was so unlike him.

              "He carved 'Phoenix' into this one….. and this one is deeper than the other arm…. Guys…. He was killing himself because of Nyx…… what happened between them?" I asked. As if it was on queue, my phone started ringing.
 
             "Guys, it's in my front pocket, that's Jake's ringtone, one of you grab it please? My hands are a little… preoccupied." I said. Jinxx grabbed my phone and answered.

-Jinxx's POV-

   

          "Hey, this is Jinxx on CC's phone. We found Andy."

               "Oh thank god. Can I talk to him? Did he tell you about Nyx?" Jake sounded upset…. Extremely upset.

               "What about Nyx?"

               "She…. She tried to kill herself. We're in the hospital. She lost a lot of blood and the doctor's don't think she'll live…. Can I talk to Andy?" I couldn't believe it…. They both killed themselves? Andy and Nyx….. some of my best friends…. Gone….

              "No Jake… you can't talk to him." I answered
 
             "What?!?! Why not?!?! He hung up on me when I was telling him about Nyx.. I'm REALLY worried, is he ok?" Jake pleaded

               "Jake…. Andy attempted suicide. CC found him cutting his wrists…. Not cutting, more like carving…. He's passed out, he's laying in a pool of blood. There's an ambulance coming…. But I'm not going to lie… he lost a lot of blood…. I don't think he'll make it out alive either….." I explained. I almost felt numb right now…. I just felt dead inside.

              "They… they both tried…." Jake said, then hung up his phone. I heard sirens screeching in the distance.

               "Jinxx….. what did Jake say?" CC asked morbidly, as if he didn't really want to know what happened. I explained what happened to Nyx. Ashley looked like he was about to kick over a bench or something. CC just gulped and looked down at Andy, pulling his limp body tighter to him.

               "It'll be ok guys. The ambulance is coming. They'll be alright." I tried to cheer them up. But we all knew the reality of the situation. We all knew our friends, our Black Veil Brides family was going to be missing two very important members.

The ambulance arrived, and they took Andy away. CC went with him in the ambulance. I felt like I was in a cloudy daze. Almost like this couldn't be real, I didn't want to believe it was. I looked on the pavement and I saw the razor blade and Andy's car keys that were left behind. I picked up the keys and tossed them to Ashley. Then I picked up the blade in my hand. So shiny… so… small. I pushed the blade against my thumb and blood trickled out. Strange, it didn't even hurt.

               "JINXX! What the HELL are you doing man?!?!" Ashley screamed, ripping the blade out of my hand. I just stared at the cut on my thumb. It wasn't deep by any means, but blood trickled down my hand and eventually started dripping on the pavement, mixing with Andy's. It was a surreal moment as I realized what was happening.

               "HELLOOOOO EARTH TO JINXX!?!?!? DUDE WHAT'S GOING ON?!?!?!" Ashley screamed at me, snapping my out of my daze.

               "Nothing man, I was just curious I guess." I shrugged it off and started walking down the street back towards the cars.
 
             "Curious? What do you mean?" Ash was puzzled. I zoned out a bit and didn't realize he was asking me a question. I was so….. taken, so interested in how that blade…. He turned so he was facing me, put his arms on my shoulders, and stared me in the eyes, making me come out of my thoughts.

              "Sorry, what?" I asked, returning his gaze.

              "Explain what you were curious about? Dude… are you ok?" Ash dropped on arm, and I took it as my queue to start walking again. Ashley quickly followed walking next to me.

               "I'm fine man…. Just…. Curious I guess. I'm curious as to how such a little blade…." My throat choked. I couldn't finish the sentence. I couldn't say it…. Not with Andy almost dead….

               "How a little blade can do so much damage?" Ash asked, trying to figure out what I was trying to say. I gulped and nodded. He patted his hand on my back and tried to be reassuring. He must be going through hell right now too…. Same as me. It was amazing how he could keep himself together. We reached Andy's car, Ashley stopped and looked up at me.
 
            "So, you drive Andy's car to the house. I'll follow you, pick you up, and we'll head to the hospital." He nodded in agreement, got in the car, and I followed suit.ff